pacot3

Tonight I am happy, ecstatic, stupendous, blissful, joyful and any other words like that. I have the biggest smile on my face and nothing can get rid of it. Even seeing a drunk person fall and bust open their mouth didn't do it. It took a hell of a long time but Thomas is finally happy. You know why, well here's why:

1. I have a car, it's kinda crappy but it works

2. Work is starting to stabilize, at least as much as it can

3. My grades are at worst decent and hopefully improving

4. And above all else, the one thing that is making me oh so very happy is that i'm not single anymore. That's right people tom, thomas, paco, that bald guy with the glasses has a girlfriend. If you have my facebook or myspace you can see who it is.

Well I just really wanted to get number 4 of my chest, but I put in the other 3 to build suspense.

Until later,

Tom

P.S.
Now your dream did come true :)

Saw Vengeance on Sunday and put on a wrestling clinic on Irby. Fun times. I still won't be able to see ECW on tuesday, this is the 3rd week in a row that I won't be able to see it on tv.

If anybody knows somebody who's selling a car for under a grand, let me know. I need a car badly. I should have a grand by the end of July and hopefully a car shortly after.

In this blur that has been my summer I didn't realize that Superman Returns comes out on wednesday not friday. So if anybody wants to go see the movie with me call me or im me.

I need to buy more movies that aren't superhero/wrestling related. Right now I'm watching Garden State and this is one of my favorite movies. Probably the only non comic book/Rocky movie that is in my top ten...if I ever get around to making a list of top ten movies.

I was gonna say something else but I can't remember, so this entry ends now.

Until next time,
Tom

Well the whole thing about me eating healthy went down the drain. I've eaten worse in the last 3-4 days then I have in the last month. Oh well, thankfully my underpaying job causes me to work out while getting payed. Anyone who thinks a box full of bras and panties is light better come to my job. Who needs a gym membership when you can lift heavy boxes all day and run all over the store, climbing ladders? It's a gym I get payed at. Unfortunately I need more money, so if anyone knows of a place that will pay me around $9 an hour I can work there. Now it's time for some wrestling dvds....

Went to the Smackdown/ECW show last week. Smackdown was good, ECW was not as bad as everyone said it was. Although being a bra professional I was upset that the girl who stripped during the show couldn't get the damn strap undone. Anyway, I loved the zombie character.

Next topic at hand: weight. It has become apparent that while my friends are losing weight, it looks like I am gaining a little. Mostly in the belly area. Being the type of person I am there is only one thing to do. Make all my friends go back to the old eating habits. That means U have to start eating meat again. U knows who they are. And the other has to start eating what he cooks at work and do less exercising. I kid...I kid. While I am too lazy to really work out, I'll probably just cut out some of the bad stuff I have. So for a while I will eat less soda, and try to get healthier food at work. Now, I'm not going to salad works and paying no damn $7 for that crap, but I won't go to sbarro and get the stromboli everyday anymore. I also have to stop getting the damn candy from CVS. Why must they torture me by making it $0.99 during the summer. Anyway let me try and go to sleep or watch something on tv. Sleep, yeah right. I haven't been able to go to sleep before 3am in the last week.

-Tom

It's been exactly 5 months since I've updated this thing so here goes nothing. I'm still single, I still watch a lot of wrestling, and I still play too many video games. I will hopefully come back and make a longer post when I have something interesting to say. Until then, it's back to my Dusty Rhodes DVD. Livin the American Dream baby!!!

Oh and RIP John Tenta aka Earthquake, Avalanche, Shark Attack, and Golga.

Until next time,
Tom

Finally, the Tom, is updating. It's been a little over two months but I'm now going to update my livejournal. So the one or two people who actually read this can get off my back about it. Anyway, several things have and will be going on in the last 2 months. Lets get on with them....

First of, wrestling is good. That's about all I can say about that. Over half my DVD's are wrestling, most ROH shows, so that tells you how much I've been watching. Gone to several shows with the regular group of people. All have been good.

Video games, are good. But I didn't play them all that much in the last month. Although I spent most of November playing Smackdown vs. Raw 2006. I just got Resident Evil 4 which I only play at night when it's dark with my 2.1 speaker system from my computer hooked to my TV with all the lights off. Good game. Eventually I have to beat some of my games so I can buy new ones to beat.

School starts back up on Monday. I'm only taking 2 classes but it seams that my Math teacher is trying to make things a little difficult. Thankfully it's math so I should be able to get things straight on how to do this stuff online. My one programming class will be on campus monday, wednesday, and friday. Thankfully the class is early so I'll be done and out of there by 1.

This leads into some things I'm trying to do for my future. First and foremost I NEED A CAR, badly. I'm working full time hours at my job, even though I'm still technically part time (I don't know), but it's still not enough. If anybody knows of a job with flexible hours that can be reached by bus from Newark please let me know cause I can use it. I'm looking for something between $9 and $10 an hour. After the car I'll probably buy a new computer. That's right I still have the one that I talked about in my last journal. I had the money for a new one right in my hands, but then I had to pay for stuff. Who knew Christmas, and my sister's wedding would be so expensive on my part. After that is all said and done I'll be moving into an apartment. My friend Andy is looking at apartments around campus to see how they are. I've checked prices for most of them online and found 2 or 3 that look good. But that's not until the fall so I still have time for that.

Lastly comes my personal life, or lack thereof. Let's see,
- Can't get her out of my head (check)
- Went to her house to give her a Christmas gift on Christmas Day (hopefully I didn't creep her out)
- Plans for New Years fell through (*#$* $*&@ son of a #$*@%!!!)
It's been about a weeks since I last talked to her so lets see what happens.

Oh, by the way, Del Tech finally got facebook so I'm now on there as well.
http://facebook.com/p.php?id=207000136&l=dae0b95af4

That is all,
Tom

P.S.
Yes I know it's 5 am I just can't sleep damn it.

It's time for me to update this thing. Some stuff has happened or is going down that I'm going to address. First off, I still haven't bought myself a new computer yet so I'm still using a loner. Hopefully that will be resolved soon. As for Yeni, I hung out with her last Tuesday. On the same day that I last updated she ended up calling me so go figure. Maybe that means I should update this thing more often. Anyway, we hung out at UD, had lunch, and I gave her a late birthday gift. That was all. Onto the meat of this journal.

I've got two things I need to address/ask. First off, work is getting demanding. The main reason for this is because we have a lack of people in the back stock room of my job. So if anyone want a job let me know. Let me reiterate, a job at VICTORIA'S SECRET. Over 90% of the people working there are women. If that's not enough, I can almost guarantee that you'll get the job since I recommened you. We are in DESPARATE need of people to work during the holiday season.

Onto the next thing. I NEED TO GET AWAY. I'm going to be taking steps to moving out of my house by the end of the spring. The problem is that unless I get a higher paying job I'll need to get a roommate. All the places I've looked at online tonight cost either $600 a night for a 1 bedroom or around $800 a month for a 2 bedroom. I'm taking steps to getting there. First I have to buy a new computer, then I have to buy a car cause I really need that, then I'll go for the apartment. If anybody is interested in possibly rooming with me let me know. I plan on taking a shortened schedule next semester in order to work more. Hopefully that will allow me to save up for a car quickly. If anybody knows someone who is selling a car cheap let me know. The computer I have the money for, I just need to find one. I probably won't have the money for the car until around Feb. - March. That's all for now.

-Tom

Well it's been about two months since I last updated this thing so here goes. I went to the Hispanic festival back in september which was alright. The only really good thing about it was that I got to see Yeni. I also bought one of those plastic wrist bands that are so popular these days. It shows off my Puerto Rican pride. Now if only I could speak the language.

In school things have been going okay. I'm ahead of my math class by a few sections and recently got over 100% on the last exam, if I keep this up I can nullify the effects of the previous exams and maybe get an A in the class. My programming class has gotten harder. Anyone who knows about classes in C++ programming is welcome to help me out. My accounting class has been all but non-existent as of late. I need to take two of the exams (don't fret it's an online course so I can take the exams whenever I want to).

Let's see, October 5th was the 14 year anniversary of my mother's death. Then October 15th was the 5 year anniversary of my cousin Carl's death. Your loved ones won't always be there so make sure you let them know how you feel.

In wrestling news, I went with John and a friend of his to see Kenta Kobashi wrestle in Philly. Anyone who is a wrestling fan will know just how great it is to see Kobashi wrestle, let alone live. You can look online for all the reviews on that if you want. Unfortunately, there are no ROH shows anywhere near me again until Final Battle 2005. I may try to convince John to go to the NY show in November. I just need to find out how much parking would cost. I know there is parking at the place, I just need to find out how much it costs.

Right now the only thing on my mind has been Yeni. I'm going crazy thinking about this girl all the time and it's driving me insane. I haven't talked to her in about a month (not due to lack of trying). I don't know what happened. Is she trying to focus on school, does her family not want her talking to me, did something happen to her and I just don't know about it. I NEED ANSWERS!!!!!!! I've called several times, sent an e-mail earlier this week and get no answers. I have no idea what is going on. Did I do something at the hispanic festival that caused her not to want to talk to me anymore. I need to know. I'm going insane. I can't stop thinking about her. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-Tom

P.S.
I now have a myspace site. I won't put in blogs in there really, I'll just link the blogs to my livejournal. http://www.myspace.com/pacot3

What, another update in less than a week? To what do we owe this honor? Well it's to explain my absence from the world of the internet for the last couple of days. First off my computer doesn't like me anymore. First my floppy drive wouldn't register on the system, then my keyboard went on the fritz. Thankfully, after a quick dusting, my floppy disk works fine now. Unfortunately, my keyboard and mouse wouldn't work. So I could get on my computer and people could talk to me on aim, but I couldn't respond to them. Then my alarm clock started screwing with my head. It started going faster than time is supposed to go. Anyhow, I bought a new alarm clock, keyboard, and mouse. The keyboard and mouse now hook up through USB ports instead of the ps/2 ports. Gosh is life getting expensive. Sadly enough, I'm no where near as cheap as I used to be (although the keyboard was opened and at a reduced price because of it). So, until my next paycheck comes through I'm really broke. And I still have to buy a $97 book at school tomorrow. Well enough of my problems cause that's not important.

To address a friend of mine's problems. Life is confusing, hard, and painful. But if it wasn't then it wouldn't be life. I've gone through a lot of tough s*** in my life. I know people who are going through tough times too. It's not about whether you get through those tough times or not. It's about how you get through it. In truth, I am probably one of the most pessimistic people in the entire world. The thing is I don't like to down people with the things I'm thinking. These things worry me but if they didn't then this wouldn't be my life.

The rest of this stuff is just about things on my mind:

"Never live in the past because you'll die a little each day."

If I focused on my past all the time I would be the most miserable person in the world. I've had people tell me that if they had my life they'd kill them self. But I don't let it bother me. All you can do in life is move on. It hurts like hell, but you have to in order to keep living. I've had nights where I've cried my eyes out over things that have happened to me in the past. The thing is I don't dwell on them all the time. Sometimes you have to cry in order to get through tough times.

"Adversity introduces a man in to himself."

If I hadn't gone through these things I wouldn't be who I am today. If my parents hadn't died I would have never come to Delaware. Which would have meant never getting my heart crushed in 2nd grade, never being the odd man out at times, never meeting friends I have like chris, john, eric n., eric g., & eric c. (I've had a lot of friends named eric, so sue me), never meeting this girl that I cannot get off of my mind, never getting payed to touch women's underwear, or possibly never making it to college. Some of those friends listed are still my friends, some I haven't talked to in years but I still consider them all my best friends because of the impact they've had on me no matter how small or great (to those not on the list sorry).

"It is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all."

Alright, john stop shaking your damn head or else you may become a belt-less honkey cause I'll make you tap. Anyway, I have had crushes at several times in my life. I have acted on none of these. In 1st grade I never said a word to the girl. In 2nd when a girl confronted me after writing a love letter to her I denied it and she broke my heart by saying she never wanted to talk to me again. In 6th grade I habitually denied liking a girl even though me and everybody in the class new cause I was too damn chicken. (For those wondering I've skipped all the unimportant ones, i've had a lot more than 3 crushes) Now I can't stop thinking about a girl...Yeni. I don't want to screw around the same way I did when I was younger. I don't want to make the same mistakes that I made when I was younger. I don't want to sit in the background and hope things go the way I want them to. Sometimes you have to go out and get what you want instead of waiting for it to come to you. I don't want to sit around and hope that Yeni calls me back or hope she invites me somewhere or something along those lines. Just read some of my older journals to understand. I went to the girls job and saw her for the first time in two years, purposely. I made excuses but I knew what I was doing went I went into Sears that day. I went in there not to buy a new razor, a pair of shorts, or work clothes. I went in there to see her. Cause two years was too damn long for me to not see her for. Cause talking over the internet wasn't cutting it for me. We may not have gone out yet, but I'm working on that. I have a plot formulating in my head that I had just typed out but don't want to delve on at the moment.

It's time to look forward. Go into the future. Plunge in head first and hope that everything turns out the way you want it. If it doesn't, then put a spin on it so it works in your favor. I flunked my freshman year of college. If I hadn't done that I may still be apart of a religion I don't fully agree with, be in more debt than I am now, and not have the freedom I have now.

-Tom

Well, well, well....

Today was an okay day. The good thing about today was that it was the Miss Hispanic Delaware Pageant, and my "friend" (I'm still working on that) Yeni is in it. Wow, the last 3 or 4 entries have been mostly about her and this is the first time I've actually put her name in. Anywho, she did great in the pageant almost winning it but having to settle for 1st runner up. Well onto why this was not a good day. None of the books I needed for school were at Liebermans. Now most people would say, Tom you don't go to UD why would you go there to find your books? To that I say, cause if they are there I can get them for a hell of a lot cheaper than I can at the Del Tech bookstore. The next thing is some crazy person almost put me off the side of the road while I was getting onto I95. There was a sign that said this way to get on I95. That means you get on that side. She was even in the correct lane but she started to go down 273 and at the last second decides to go onto I95 after the lane has already split in 2 and I'm right there. Anyway, after that I get to the Pageant early cause I didn't know how parking would be. Well I get there and find a good parking spot less than a block away. Unfortunately, while parking the wheel hits against the sidewalk. No big deal. When I come out an hour later to put more money in the meter I see that the tire is completely flat. Not good. Thankfully, my sister's boyfriend was able to put a donut on while I was at the pageant. Want the last thing that made this only an ok day. Yeni got 2nd place. And it wasn't even to one of the people who I thought had a chance of winning, a chance only because I thought Yeni was gonna win (or at least hoped). I wasn't even sad that she lost, I was put in a blah mood cause I saw how she felt kinda sad that she only got 2nd place. Well now I have to go to bed cause I have to be at work at 9:30 and I want to actually get up. I may update this later in the week to tell of how things are going at Del Tech cause I start classes on Monday. Until then...

-Tom

I am in a good...no exstatic...no a Tony the Tiger yelling GGGGGRRRRRRREEEEEAAAAAAAATTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!! mood. Finally got a freakin phone call returned. Finally gonna see the girl and not inside of a freakin Sears. I just need a few people to go with me to this fundraiser. As of right now I have one sister coming. I'm iffy about having the other one come cause she's over protective of me. But if I bring her boyfriend she will hopefully not be paying me any attention. Oh how a single phone call makes an unproductive day seem so great.

And just so this isn't all positive mushy stuff that most people hear from me, let me go on a rant right now. I HATE RING AROUND THE DAMN TOILET!!!!! There, I feel better now.

And to conclude this, the summer of honor was a success, for the most part. Now I just need to start planning for the fall. Del Tech I'm coming for yah. And what you gonna do when the 23 inch baldness runs wild on you, brother!

-Tom

Why can't I stop thinking about this girl. It would be so much easier if she didn't occupy the space between my ears every hour of every day. Not even wrestling can get my mind of this girl for long (and anybody who knows me KNOWS that's bad). To make matters worse, I don't get to see her that often. My calls go unreturned. I don't want to stop in while she's at work, I've already done that before. Hell, I went there today to buy something even though I knew she wasn't working. How come whenever I move one step forward when it comes to women I end up moving 3 steps back. I just can't stop thinking about this girl. Hopefully I'll be able to see her before August 20. If not then I hope she actually remembers that she invited me to it. She not even on the website for the participants in it. Ohhhhhh, why?! The other thing is, as soon as I start thinking maybe she doesn't like me let me go see if there are any other girls interested in me she calls me. What the hell's up with that. I know she has a busy schedule but how is it that she always calls at that time when my brain thinks "She doesn't like me, she's just pulling my leg, let me go look for somebody else." Who knows. Maybe she torturing me for not seeing her for 2 years. Maybe cause I hadn't contacted her for 5 months. Maybe she's trying to make me pay for not going to UD anymore. Or maybe I'm just a paranoid 20 year old who isn't sure if he's in love cause he's never been in love before and is trying to go out with a girl who has a really busy schedule. Damn. I just wrote a lot and it's all about the same subject. I really need to get this girl either off my mind or on a date with me. And there was only one reference to wrestling in the entire rant. This can't be healthy. Oh well. Let me find something to try and ease the mind.

-Tom

Last time I updated I was in a pretty bad mood. Not this time. I haven't been this happy in a while. I've had a string of good things happen to me in the last several weeks. First I finally got in touch with a certian someone after a long period of time, I had a good amount of money given to me from my grandmother selling the family house down in Puerto Rico which puts me closer to my goal of a car this summer, and I'll be working more. The last part is good because it allows me to have more money for different things I plan on doing this summer ie. Summer of Honor with John, Mets game next weekend, car, and hopefully being able to hang out with a certain someone. I'm also out of school for the summer which is always good. To cap everything off, I got out of work 3 hours early today. Afterwards, my tries to call John were unsuccessful. So I decided to go to the store. For some reason, though, instead of going to somewhere closer I decided to go to Sears for sale reasons **wink, wink**. While there I actually ran into that certain someone I talked about earlier in this entry and got to talk to her. My only regret is that when she said that she gained a little weight I didn't say that I thought that she still looked just as beautiful as the first time I saw her two years ago. That's the one thing I hate about myself, I always think of something good to say when it's too late. Oh well, maybe she'll read this and see what I was actually thinking.

Until next time...
Tom

Let's see, I flunked an exam yesterday so that means I fail the class.
I can live with that.

Chris Candido, a pro wrestler who just got his life and career back on track dies.
It sucks, but I can move on just like I've tried to with the death of my parents.

I just watched Fahrenhrit 9/11.
I'm not political and I haven't cursed in 5 years, but I have one thing to say.

FUCK BUSH!!!!

-Tom

Two months. What have I been doing for the past two months that has caused me not to update. Hmmm....playing video games, watching wrestling, school, work, the same old things. Also having problems with the internet at home, so for those who usually see me on aim that's why I'm not there. As far as school goes, I need a miracle in one class, and the other two I just need to get my work done. Don't really have anything else I want to say at the moment. Maybe I'll update later this week with a more wrestling oriented update. By then I should have gathered my thoughts. Until then.

-Tom

Well I'm sitting in class and am bored out of my mind. I should be paying attention but I can figure out the homework when I get to it. Anyway, I am highly anticipating saturday. Why you may ask? ROfrickinH that's why. Ring Of Honor!!!!!!!!! for you non-wrestling fans. First the Do Or Die IV Show at 3pm on Saturday. I finally get to see the highly hyped El Generico and Kevin Steen. I've seen clips of these two and heard praise from all realms of wrestling web sites. Hopefully we can get up the jersey turnpike in about 2 hours so we can get to that one on time. Then after that show comes.....ROH Third Anniversary Show I. 2 steal cage matches, a tape fist match, 4 title matches, and HUSS. If you don't know what Huss is go here: http://www.livejournal.com/users/jimmyjacobs/ There you will find the Huss man Jimmy Jacobs. Think Bruiser Brody and Nord packaged smaller.

In about 1 hour I will get back an exam. That should be fun. Let's hope I didn't fail to badly. Anyhow, I saw Poo's Heffalup Movie. Don't ask. It was a friends birthday, he and a bunch of other people were going to see it and I was invited. The one plus is that when we went back to his apartment we saw Napoleon Dynamite. Now I will understand when people quote that movie. Great stuff right there. I don't care who you are that right there is funny. Get-r-dun!!!!!

Well this class has ended early and I now have close to an hour till class starts. Time to eat.

Get-r-dun!

Well, my friends have all updated their livejournal so I think it's time for me to do the same.

First of all, school is hard as hell. Flunked an exam, passed a quiz, flunked a quiz, and aced one exam. The funny thing about the exam is that I got my notes from somebody else, passed with a 100 and the other guy got a 60. Oh the irony. Now I got an exam next week that I have to prepare for. Time to get crackin on that.

Wrestling...oh how I love thee so. Not like that, but the time is coming soon where I will get to go to another ROH show. I've never seen a steal cage match live and now I get to see two. Since ROH wasn't in the area for there last show I wasn't able to go, but come Feb. 19 that'll all change. With the road to Wrestlemania starting with the Royal Rumble, the best time of the year for wrestling is coming. Hopefully WWE goes with John Cena vs. JBL and Triple H vs. Batista as main events. I can't wait for that.

Oh how I wish I had more of a personal life. Work's the same....work. Now that I have hours again I can actually pay for everything I need to. Hopefully the soap opera that is my friend John's life will turn out alright. I haven't talked to him since he got the ROH tickets so I don't know if he's realing doing ok or not. Only time will tell. Hopefully a great wrestling show can get his mind off of all the troubles he's been going through, and maybe some of them will end. All my friends at UD have returned. Lets see if I can go hang out with them more then twice this semester. I'll have to see how my schedule is from day to day. Then I can go make fun of the iron jaw and sideburns.

Until I come back and update this again I am,
pacot3 aka The 3rd aka Tom

Isn't snow grand. It allows me to get out of having to go to work today. The problem is that I'm now stuck in my house doing nothing for a day or two. I could watch a Ring of Honor DVD, or maybe re-watch the entire Ted Petty Invitational tournament. Nah. I've seen most of the ROH shows at least twice and the Ted Petty Show is 6 DVD's long. The only moment I want to see is when CM Punk talks about who he'll face in round two:

Ian Rotten: "Facing CM Punk in round two of the tournament..."

CM Punk: "No whammy, no whammy, no whammy."

Ian Rotten: "...American Dragon Bryan Danielson."

CM Punk: "That's a fucking whammy."

Maybe some video games.
Smackdown vs. Raw: The newest one is repetitive, and I've beaten season mode about 5 times already.
Legends of Wrestling 2: It's screwing up.
Maybe I'll finally beat one of those rpg's like Final Fantasy or Kingdom Hearts.
Maybe porn...nah I'm a good boy.

Well let me go find something to do.

"He did kick me squarely in the balls before he applied this move." - CM Punk
T3

So this is the almighty live jornal I've heard so much about. After reading what all the wrestlers have to say lets let the wrestling fan get a word in. Where do I begin...I had a crappy childhood highlighted by the death of my parents before I was even 10 years old. Now that the sob story is out of the way lets get to some more recent stuff. I discovered wrestling in middle school just at the hight of the attitude era. God do a wish wrestling could be as it was then. WWF (NOT THE E) with the great up and comers, WCW with great cruiserweight action in the undercard, and ECW who in the eyes of many could do no wrong. Fast forward to now, I graduate in the top 10 of my highschool class. Problem is I went to a stupid high school. Sucks for all of us who went on to college. One valedictorian (yeah we had 3) leaves the major college after about 2 weeks, the other does just as bad as me. The oompaloompa looking one (stop going tanning BEFORE your skin turns orange) was hated by all so I will not comment on her. The one who did as bad as me is my buddy who dormed with me. See a pattern. Put two huge wrestling fans in a room with access to all things wrestling related over the internet, numerous wrestling video games, and one with a huge interest in a little indy fed called ROH and you could see how the grades went down. We just blame it on the crappy high school. Anyway, I currently reside in a house with my 2 older sisters. Could be worse. I could still be in a house with my aunt and uncle having to follow all of their rules and having to follow a religious belief that I was continually turning myself off from. This one just costs me more money cause I actually have to pay. The only other things you need to know about me is...wait you don't have to know any thing about me. You don't know me. Anywho let me stop my rant. Time to go. I'm done talking about myself. Maybe next time I'll have an interesting story or something.

If you don't like it leave,
T3